"I need you," are words that I've never said to anyone before. This three-syllable sentence appears to be so small, but actually turns out to be one of the biggest forms of vulnerability to be able to verbalize. This small sentence is big and scary- sends me into hiding when I think of how much of an impact it would have on me and others. But the truth is, if these words are never spoken of, you risk a part of yourself forever being closed off to someone who could help you when you need it the most. Sometimes you just gotta admit that you need the help.
For years I've struggled with gravitating towards myself during my toughest moments. My pride caused me to hold my head up high all while being extremely saddened on the inside because I felt alone. I had allowed my autonomy to infiltrate into my relationships- not fully allowing people inside. Although letting my guard down is no small feat, I have come to understand that this is something that is necessary; despite my fear.
How many people do you walk past on a daily basis? How many people do you think have a piece to that puzzle you're trying to put together? A friend of mine put it this way- sometimes we look for God to work on our behalf, when He already has! He's already placed people before and around us to be able to carry out what it is that is on our heart. We are apart of Him- experiencing life with others is to experience Him and what He has for you as well.
So, while I truly advocate on the behalf of the recluse, this time I'm gonna have to advocate for another cause. I need to start advocating for community. Honesty. Smiling in public (lol). And simply considering others for a change. I can't do this alone, and neither can you. This is gonna be a bit tough for me, but it's time for me to start making a change. Say a prayer for me!